Category Archives: ptsd

Closing the deal with my mom…

Posted on May 17, 2013 by

Last Friday, with sparring helmet, boxing gloves, and mouthguard, I stepped onto the testing mat with adrenaline rushing in my head. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it in my throat. “This is your black belt test! … Continue reading →

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Closing the door to depression…

Posted on April 16, 2013 by

Sunday was a wonderful and very hard day. That’s how most days have felt since my mom died, a mix of both horror over losing my mom and extreme gratitude for the people who are still in my life. But … Continue reading →

Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, depression, fear, forgiveness, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, love, major depression, mother daughter relationships, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma | 13 Comments

You can heal from anything…

Posted on March 24, 2013 by

For those who struggle. May you find a piece of hope in my story. Blessings for your journey. 7 years ago… For more than a year, I had a standing date with myself every Tuesday, 5pm-10pm at Borders Bookstore. As … Continue reading →

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Gratitude and grief…why we need both to be healthy.

Posted on March 21, 2013 by

“Don’t be sad, your mom is happy in heaven.” It was the day after my mom’s funeral when someone bearing a huge, plastered smile said those words to me. You want me to be happy? I thought. One day earlier … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, friendship, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, love, motherhood, parenting, ptsd, recovery, trauma, wisdom | 16 Comments

Living through the storms of life

Posted on March 20, 2013 by

We all get knocked down by life. Some of us are hit early on in life, and it takes decades to realize the damage we live out every day. But no matter what life has dealt us, and no matter … Continue reading →

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To my friends who are grieving…

Posted on March 18, 2013 by

When I first entered recovery almost 7 years ago, via a serious breakdown, I quickly learned how important grieving was to my recovery. I had a mountain of unprocessed sadness and pain that trailed me since childhood, and the only thing … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, brain cancer, depression, devotional, eating disorders, faith, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, spirituality, therapy, trauma, wisdom | 7 Comments

The fantasies of mothers…

Posted on March 14, 2013 by

I had big mommy dreams before I had kids. I pictured myself chasing lady bugs and butterflies through open fields with my children as they giggled with curiosity and delight. I could practically hear the Chariots of Fire soundtrack in … Continue reading →

Posted in co-dependency, depression, faith, fear, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, motherhood, parenting, ptsd, recovery, trauma, wisdom | 14 Comments

a mother’s prayer

Posted on March 9, 2013 by

This is my prayer as I fight with intense anxiety and grief barging its way into too much of my day. I’m struggling to be a good mom as I process the past five months of losing my mom to brain cancer. … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, faith, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, motherhood, parenting, prayer, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma, Uncategorized | 23 Comments

The other side of revenge…

Posted on February 19, 2013 by

Yesterday, I received the hospital’s report regarding my mom’s fall. (To read what happened to my mom, read my post 15 minutes of hell) The scene has played out hundreds of times since she fell on December 15th. And after … Continue reading →

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5 words that turned trauma into a gift…

Posted on December 21, 2012 by

I was given an incredible gift today and I just have to share it with you. It wasn’t wrapped in Christmas paper, and it didn’t arrive in a UPS truck. The gift was given to me in a phone call … Continue reading →

Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, mother daughter relationships, motherhood, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, therapy, trauma | 18 Comments