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Where heaven and hell meet
I never thought I’d find comfort in a cemetery, but I do. I visit my mom’s grave often, usually at dusk. It’s the only place where I can unpack all the sorrow and questions that linger in my heart. The … Continue reading
doing hard things
“Will your wife be staying here during your procedure?” the nurse asked my dad as she motioned to me. Yuck. “Oh, this is my daughter,” he said sweetly as he looked at me and patted my shoulder. We locked eyes … Continue reading
Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, depression, faith, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, grief work, healing, hope, love, mother daughter relationships, motherhood, prayer, recovery, trauma, Uncategorized, wisdom
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You can heal from anything…
For those who struggle. May you find a piece of hope in my story. Blessings for your journey. 7 years ago… For more than a year, I had a standing date with myself every Tuesday, 5pm-10pm at Borders Bookstore. As … Continue reading
Posted in addiction, anxiety, childhood trauma, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, EMDR, faith, fear, forgiveness, grace, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, major depression, motherhood, parenting, prayer, ptsd, recovery, self help, shame, spiritual healing, therapy, trauma, Uncategorized, wisdom
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Gratitude and grief…why we need both to be healthy.
“Don’t be sad, your mom is happy in heaven.” It was the day after my mom’s funeral when someone bearing a huge, plastered smile said those words to me. You want me to be happy? I thought. One day earlier … Continue reading
Posted in addiction, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, friendship, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, love, motherhood, parenting, ptsd, recovery, trauma, wisdom
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The fantasies of mothers…
I had big mommy dreams before I had kids. I pictured myself chasing lady bugs and butterflies through open fields with my children as they giggled with curiosity and delight. I could practically hear the Chariots of Fire soundtrack in … Continue reading
Posted in co-dependency, depression, faith, fear, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, motherhood, parenting, ptsd, recovery, trauma, wisdom
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a mother’s prayer
This is my prayer as I fight with intense anxiety and grief barging its way into too much of my day. I’m struggling to be a good mom as I process the past five months of losing my mom to brain cancer. … Continue reading
Posted in addiction, anxiety, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, faith, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, motherhood, parenting, prayer, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma, Uncategorized
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calling 911
We had to call 911 for our youngest son yesterday. The incident happened so fast, and I’m still spinning from it. Two nights ago, my husband took our son to the ER where he was diagnosed with bronchitis and pneumonia. … Continue reading
Posted in anxiety, christianity, devotional, faith, fear, grace, hope, inspiration, motherhood, parenting, spiritual healing, trauma
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a blessed tragedy
In a few hours my family and I will bury my mom. It’s surreal to write those words. How can that be? I find I’m still quite numb and shocked. As I sit holding my mom’s blanket and remembering when … Continue reading
Renegotiating a deal with my mom…
I sighed as I entered the kitchen. It must have been a deep one because our eldest son, who was doing the dishes, immediately turned to me and said, “You ok, Mom?” Our boys have seen me cry only three … Continue reading
5 words that turned trauma into a gift…
I was given an incredible gift today and I just have to share it with you. It wasn’t wrapped in Christmas paper, and it didn’t arrive in a UPS truck. The gift was given to me in a phone call … Continue reading
