Category Archives: fear

Why bulimics hate going to the dentist…

Posted on May 9, 2013 by

As the metal scraper moved across my teeth, the dental hygienist paused when it landed on inside of my front teeth. Ok, here it comes…I thought. “So, I see the enamel has worn away here on the inside of your … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, childhood trauma, christianity, eating disorders, fear, grace, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, recovery, secrets, shame, spiritual healing, trauma | 22 Comments

Closing the door to depression…

Posted on April 16, 2013 by

Sunday was a wonderful and very hard day. That’s how most days have felt since my mom died, a mix of both horror over losing my mom and extreme gratitude for the people who are still in my life. But … Continue reading →

Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, depression, fear, forgiveness, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, love, major depression, mother daughter relationships, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma | 13 Comments

doing hard things

Posted on April 11, 2013 by

“Will your wife be staying here during your procedure?” the nurse asked my dad as she motioned to me. Yuck. “Oh, this is my daughter,” he said sweetly as he looked at me and patted my shoulder. We locked eyes … Continue reading →

Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, depression, faith, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, grief work, healing, hope, love, mother daughter relationships, motherhood, prayer, recovery, trauma, Uncategorized, wisdom | 15 Comments

You can heal from anything…

Posted on March 24, 2013 by

For those who struggle. May you find a piece of hope in my story. Blessings for your journey. 7 years ago… For more than a year, I had a standing date with myself every Tuesday, 5pm-10pm at Borders Bookstore. As … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, childhood trauma, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, EMDR, faith, fear, forgiveness, grace, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, major depression, motherhood, parenting, prayer, ptsd, recovery, self help, shame, spiritual healing, therapy, trauma, Uncategorized, wisdom | 15 Comments

To my friends who are grieving…

Posted on March 18, 2013 by

When I first entered recovery almost 7 years ago, via a serious breakdown, I quickly learned how important grieving was to my recovery. I had a mountain of unprocessed sadness and pain that trailed me since childhood, and the only thing … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, brain cancer, depression, devotional, eating disorders, faith, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, spirituality, therapy, trauma, wisdom | 7 Comments

The fantasies of mothers…

Posted on March 14, 2013 by

I had big mommy dreams before I had kids. I pictured myself chasing lady bugs and butterflies through open fields with my children as they giggled with curiosity and delight. I could practically hear the Chariots of Fire soundtrack in … Continue reading →

Posted in co-dependency, depression, faith, fear, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, motherhood, parenting, ptsd, recovery, trauma, wisdom | 14 Comments

calling 911

Posted on February 25, 2013 by

We had to call 911 for our youngest son yesterday. The incident happened so fast, and I’m still spinning from it. Two nights ago, my husband took our son to the ER where he was diagnosed with bronchitis and pneumonia. … Continue reading →

Posted in anxiety, christianity, devotional, faith, fear, grace, hope, inspiration, motherhood, parenting, spiritual healing, trauma | 33 Comments

The lure of discouragement

Posted on February 18, 2013 by

Discouragement is a liar that roams the world looking for souls to bury, long before the life is over. It lures its victims into a warm, cozy den of self pity and resignation. It stalks us in our weakest moments of … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, brain cancer, depression, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma | 16 Comments

a little light, please.

Posted on February 12, 2013 by

I love how deep inspiration sometimes comes from the most common conversations and experiences. Last night was one of those moments. I took the baked tilapia out of the oven for dinner and realized I needed a lemon from our … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, healing, hope, love, recovery, spiritual healing | 8 Comments

4 words that change everything

Posted on January 12, 2013 by

Last night ——– It’s 12:20am and I just finished my black belt candidate exercises on the floor of my parent’s spare bedroom. We have to do them every day, no matter what. It’s technically tomorrow but since I just got … Continue reading →

Posted in blog, brain cancer, christianity, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, love, mother daughter relationships, spiritual healing, trauma | 18 Comments