Category Archives: eating disorders

Closing the deal with my mom…

Posted on May 17, 2013 by

Last Friday, with sparring helmet, boxing gloves, and mouthguard, I stepped onto the testing mat with adrenaline rushing in my head. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it in my throat. “This is your black belt test! … Continue reading →

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Why bulimics hate going to the dentist…

Posted on May 9, 2013 by

As the metal scraper moved across my teeth, the dental hygienist paused when it landed on inside of my front teeth. Ok, here it comes…I thought. “So, I see the enamel has worn away here on the inside of your … Continue reading →

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You can heal from anything…

Posted on March 24, 2013 by

For those who struggle. May you find a piece of hope in my story. Blessings for your journey. 7 years ago… For more than a year, I had a standing date with myself every Tuesday, 5pm-10pm at Borders Bookstore. As … Continue reading →

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Gratitude and grief…why we need both to be healthy.

Posted on March 21, 2013 by

“Don’t be sad, your mom is happy in heaven.” It was the day after my mom’s funeral when someone bearing a huge, plastered smile said those words to me. You want me to be happy? I thought. One day earlier … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, friendship, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, love, motherhood, parenting, ptsd, recovery, trauma, wisdom | 16 Comments

Living through the storms of life

Posted on March 20, 2013 by

We all get knocked down by life. Some of us are hit early on in life, and it takes decades to realize the damage we live out every day. But no matter what life has dealt us, and no matter … Continue reading →

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To my friends who are grieving…

Posted on March 18, 2013 by

When I first entered recovery almost 7 years ago, via a serious breakdown, I quickly learned how important grieving was to my recovery. I had a mountain of unprocessed sadness and pain that trailed me since childhood, and the only thing … Continue reading →

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Grief and chocolate frosting

Posted on March 12, 2013 by

Thanks to my dear friend, who doubles as my unpaid therapist, I experienced a light-bulb moment today. It has to do with chocolate frosting. Follow me here; it’s a strange tale, but there’s a good ending. When my mom was … Continue reading →

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a prayer for grace

Posted on February 27, 2013 by

This morning as I listened to my mom’s worship music and cried my eyes out, I prayed for God to give me the ability to forgive Nurse K. This is what he gave to me… He is so good.  

Posted in addiction, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, faith, forgiveness, grace, gratitude, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, love, prayer, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma | 5 Comments

What inspires me…

Posted on January 7, 2013 by

I’m reposting this because I continue to be blown away by the stories of people fighting the good fight. May you never give up, and most importantly, may you see how very worthy you are…I continue to be inspired by … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, depression, eating disorders, fear, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, recovery, spiritual healing | 26 Comments

Emotional streaking…

Posted on December 14, 2012 by

Just a quick note before I share my little breakthrough this morning. When I decided to write a blog about my recovery, I never intended it to be real-time. I thought it would be a reflective memoir of sorts, a … Continue reading →

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