Category Archives: christianity

Closing the deal with my mom…

Posted on May 17, 2013 by

Last Friday, with sparring helmet, boxing gloves, and mouthguard, I stepped onto the testing mat with adrenaline rushing in my head. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it in my throat. “This is your black belt test! … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, blog, brain cancer, childhood trauma, christianity, depression, eating disorders, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, healing, hope, inspiration, love, major depression, mother daughter relationships, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma | 8 Comments

Why bulimics hate going to the dentist…

Posted on May 9, 2013 by

As the metal scraper moved across my teeth, the dental hygienist paused when it landed on inside of my front teeth. Ok, here it comes…I thought. “So, I see the enamel has worn away here on the inside of your … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, childhood trauma, christianity, eating disorders, fear, grace, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, recovery, secrets, shame, spiritual healing, trauma | 22 Comments

Where heaven and hell meet

Posted on May 3, 2013 by

I never thought I’d find comfort in a cemetery, but I do. I visit my mom’s grave often, usually at dusk. It’s the only place where I can unpack all the sorrow and questions that linger in my heart. The … Continue reading →

Posted in brain cancer, christianity, faith, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, hope, love, mother daughter relationships, motherhood, prayer, recovery | 17 Comments

You can heal from anything…

Posted on March 24, 2013 by

For those who struggle. May you find a piece of hope in my story. Blessings for your journey. 7 years ago… For more than a year, I had a standing date with myself every Tuesday, 5pm-10pm at Borders Bookstore. As … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, childhood trauma, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, EMDR, faith, fear, forgiveness, grace, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, major depression, motherhood, parenting, prayer, ptsd, recovery, self help, shame, spiritual healing, therapy, trauma, Uncategorized, wisdom | 15 Comments

Gratitude and grief…why we need both to be healthy.

Posted on March 21, 2013 by

“Don’t be sad, your mom is happy in heaven.” It was the day after my mom’s funeral when someone bearing a huge, plastered smile said those words to me. You want me to be happy? I thought. One day earlier … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, friendship, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, love, motherhood, parenting, ptsd, recovery, trauma, wisdom | 16 Comments

Living through the storms of life

Posted on March 20, 2013 by

We all get knocked down by life. Some of us are hit early on in life, and it takes decades to realize the damage we live out every day. But no matter what life has dealt us, and no matter … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, faith, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, love, prayer, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma, wisdom | 2 Comments

Grief and chocolate frosting

Posted on March 12, 2013 by

Thanks to my dear friend, who doubles as my unpaid therapist, I experienced a light-bulb moment today. It has to do with chocolate frosting. Follow me here; it’s a strange tale, but there’s a good ending. When my mom was … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, brain cancer, christianity, devotional, eating disorders, friendship, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grief work, guilt, hope, love, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma, wisdom | 8 Comments

a mother’s prayer

Posted on March 9, 2013 by

This is my prayer as I fight with intense anxiety and grief barging its way into too much of my day. I’m struggling to be a good mom as I process the past five months of losing my mom to brain cancer. … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, faith, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, inspiration, love, motherhood, parenting, prayer, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma, Uncategorized | 23 Comments

a prayer for grace

Posted on February 27, 2013 by

This morning as I listened to my mom’s worship music and cried my eyes out, I prayed for God to give me the ability to forgive Nurse K. This is what he gave to me… He is so good.  

Posted in addiction, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, faith, forgiveness, grace, gratitude, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, love, prayer, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma | 5 Comments

calling 911

Posted on February 25, 2013 by

We had to call 911 for our youngest son yesterday. The incident happened so fast, and I’m still spinning from it. Two nights ago, my husband took our son to the ER where he was diagnosed with bronchitis and pneumonia. … Continue reading →

Posted in anxiety, christianity, devotional, faith, fear, grace, hope, inspiration, motherhood, parenting, spiritual healing, trauma | 33 Comments