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Closing the deal with my mom…
Last Friday, with sparring helmet, boxing gloves, and mouthguard, I stepped onto the testing mat with adrenaline rushing in my head. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it in my throat. “This is your black belt test! … Continue reading
Closing the door to depression…
Sunday was a wonderful and very hard day. That’s how most days have felt since my mom died, a mix of both horror over losing my mom and extreme gratitude for the people who are still in my life. But … Continue reading
doing hard things
“Will your wife be staying here during your procedure?” the nurse asked my dad as she motioned to me. Yuck. “Oh, this is my daughter,” he said sweetly as he looked at me and patted my shoulder. We locked eyes … Continue reading
Posted in anxiety, blog, brain cancer, depression, faith, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, grief work, healing, hope, love, mother daughter relationships, motherhood, prayer, recovery, trauma, Uncategorized, wisdom
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Gratitude and grief…why we need both to be healthy.
“Don’t be sad, your mom is happy in heaven.” It was the day after my mom’s funeral when someone bearing a huge, plastered smile said those words to me. You want me to be happy? I thought. One day earlier … Continue reading
Posted in addiction, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, friendship, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, gratitude, grief work, guilt, healing, hope, love, motherhood, parenting, ptsd, recovery, trauma, wisdom
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Living through the storms of life
We all get knocked down by life. Some of us are hit early on in life, and it takes decades to realize the damage we live out every day. But no matter what life has dealt us, and no matter … Continue reading
Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, devotional, eating disorders, faith, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, love, prayer, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, trauma, wisdom
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To my friends who are grieving…
When I first entered recovery almost 7 years ago, via a serious breakdown, I quickly learned how important grieving was to my recovery. I had a mountain of unprocessed sadness and pain that trailed me since childhood, and the only thing … Continue reading
Posted in addiction, anxiety, blog, brain cancer, depression, devotional, eating disorders, faith, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, grief work, healing, hope, inspiration, ptsd, recovery, spiritual healing, spirituality, therapy, trauma, wisdom
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Grief and chocolate frosting
Thanks to my dear friend, who doubles as my unpaid therapist, I experienced a light-bulb moment today. It has to do with chocolate frosting. Follow me here; it’s a strange tale, but there’s a good ending. When my mom was … Continue reading
a little light, please.
I love how deep inspiration sometimes comes from the most common conversations and experiences. Last night was one of those moments. I took the baked tilapia out of the oven for dinner and realized I needed a lemon from our … Continue reading
Posted in addiction, blog, brain cancer, christianity, depression, fear, Glioblastoma Multiforme, grace, healing, hope, love, recovery, spiritual healing
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understanding my mom’s tears
It was a bright and sunny day about a year and a half ago. I was alone with my mom in the car on the way to my grandma’s funeral. Sorrow and my mom’s perfume mixed in the air with the smell of … Continue reading
Where meaning and purpose reside…
Written as I lie facedown in the valley of losing my mom… love to you…
